colours too dull and spammed with imperfection
Monday, May 30, 2011
hey, hold on tight.
I just had a bad day.
Today. Everything was fucked up today. My parents. My friends. My siblings. Congrats in making me pissed off.
Everything I wanna do, also cannot. I wanna go library finish up my homework, cannot. I wanna go out buy something to eat, cannot. I wanna take the bus to Singapore on my own so I don't trouble you, cannot. I don't get it. It's not like I'm meeting up with Rusyaidi/Leroy and do some stupid stuffs. I'm doing things that benefit me. I don't understand my parents these days.
Sometimes, I just feel like running away. Just to be with you, silently, not talking. Even if you're speechless, I'm just glad I'm beside you. But now I don't think I have the guts to do what I want and need. One day, I might just shut up and let things happen. Maybe that one day is the day where I don't really give a fuck about things anymore. That one day, is the day where it's the best time to die.
Don't worry too much kay? I'm sure he'll be fine, God loves him too. For now, pray to God for his safety, don't give up hope okay? Hope for the best, sorry can't be with you now, but I promise I'll be there when you need me. Not only me, you still got Shermaine & Dyllis, and probably others too. All of us love you, Clarissa Siah, stay strong :)